The Last Sunrise

A mixed of emotions. Never felt this way before. I feel jubilant and sad and stress at the same time. I can't seem to find that loud voice I possess to shout that few alphabets. My jubilance gets the better of me when I'm in base. You could say that I'm making them feel worse. My sadness hides inside of me so nobody knows why. The stress in my head is turning my beauty sleep into a confined room. A room getting smaller by the hour as four walls seem to invade my personal space. A space I used to have. A space where my dream travels to and fro without any obstacle. Now, there is hardly any for me to breathe. Behind these four walls, there are still more walls. Behind more walls, there are walls surrounding these walls. As if there were translucent, I could look directly through them. And what I see every night, are thousands of walls. I am surrounded, confined by all of them.

How to waste one hour in the best place on earth.

I just can't help by typing it. ANGRY!

In order for us, okay. Apologies, no more US. I need not associate myself with them anymore. :) For me, I need to take a 15 - m issss n sssssssssss u t ssssssesssss s - interval bus out to the MRT from the BEST place. There is no way you could walk out cause well, you may as well wait for a bus to take you out. That way, it is f a s sssssss t eeeeeee e r. So I was waiting for the bus at point 1. By the fucking way, there are 3 areas to wait for the bus. Back to the point, was waiting at point 1 at 1700 hrs.

1715 | The bus reached. Uncle signalled the 'peace' sign to us. Meaning, 2 empty seats left. WTF? Alright. I guess the other bunch of people boarded at point 2. So no choice. Have to be kiasu abit, walk over to point 2 to wait so before the detour route, I am already on board. The next bus was supposed to reach at 1730. Okay, so I walked over to point 2.

1730 | At point 2, looking at the number of people(around 30 plus?), I thought I was confirmed a place in that bus. So I did not hurry up when the bus arrived. I strolled up the bus confidently. Passed a few couple of empty seats to proceed to the back rows cause initially I thought I could have a seat with those I know. In the end, there wasn't any seats available at the back. So I turned back and the seats which I passed by earlier were already occupied. Oh stupid shit! I was the only one without seat I guess. If this wasn't unlucky, I have no idea what it was? So I hurried to squeeze seats with two of my friends. Due to the new rule that the bus can't afford people standing, I was chased out of the bus by the driver. Wonderful isn't it? I was furious! 1 leh, not 10 leh! Just me alone buay sai meh? What to do? Wonderful rule placed by the wonderful management. So I have to wait HERE at point 2 again. I fear the worse if I were to go over to point 3, in the midst of proceeding there, the bus might just drove past me and I will missing another bus! So I just stayed put at point 2 LOR.

1745| Finally, sighted the bus. The bus went further without stopping and to point 1. Oh no, bad omen. This is bad. SIAO LIAO! True enough, the bus came to my point, BUT it didn't stop. I saw my friend on it waving to me. FULL AGAIN! WTF HOW FUCKING SWAY CAN I GET AH?! My red heart was crying out loud. I could hear the loud weeping from the outside. I walked to point 3 without any hesitation. While walking, I told my weeping heart, there isn't any use of being angry.

1800 | Finally boarded the bus at point 3. YES! In the end, after detouring out. I counted the people on the bus with me. 10? FUCK THIS.

'In my previous life/lives, I think I owed this wonderful organisation too much..' And I mean it so much. Why can't they organise more buses to fetch more people if they can organise an event with so many people involved? Well well well. Very well fucking soon, it'll be over. So I'll not frown. ;D

Priceless

Seriously, the bag costs a bomb.